When preparing for anything personaly challenging I suppose you need to take that step back from the busyness of what your caught up in to allow yourself mental quiet to reinvest the Core reason for engaging in such a thing.
For me, I'm switching off from the world to find that place that can remove all the external distractions that will only interfere with the required mentality to Paraclimb the Eiger.
My experience of people when they're scared, is that they project that fear onto you in extreme situations as anger or constructed reasons for you to do what they want. It's just survival.
I'm looking for a place in my head that manages my own fears down without them resonating the two feet through my voice and body language to the attached John whilst leaving enough mental space to communicate effectively in a language that Jay understands and keep a watchful eye on Alex's 'cognitive fog' when the fatigue kicks in. All this with my climbing friend Colin's invaluable support. It was never going to be easy, but we are here now, as ready as we can be.
Learning to control your mind in extremis requires for me, a process of being as obsessively prepared as possible, then letting go of the small stuff and committing fully with a true belief.
It all feels a little surreal at the moment, like the drawing, but I know none of it is real until we are there on the mountain, on the Eiger.